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I’m not really OK (just angrier)

I got a call from my good friend Bobby (I write about him in The Whore is Home). He just reread my memoir and asked if I’m OK.

I had to think about that.  People who read my 2012 memoir ONE SMALL SACRIFICE might wonder how I survived all that: tragic childhood, abuse, the adoption crap, the bad marriage, bad everything, my search for my parents, not meeting my mother Helen, then all the research I did for TWO WORLDS, then the entire book series on Lost Children.

I can say that on most days I’m OK.  I’m over with what happened because it’s over.  I’m not there anymore.  If I reread ONE SMALL SACRIFICE again myself, I might have the same questions he did = how did I survive that?

I can only say I’m OK now because I worked on myself a very long time.  I dug up the dark past so it could be exposed to light.  I didn’t write every gory detail because some of it is still buried (deep)—and it needs to stay buried because I can’t handle it.  I don’t want to remember some of it. I wrote what I could, as much as I could.

When I was in my early 20s, I had no idea back then that I would ever be OK.

And I am not OK. I’m angry.  But I am getting better and healthier.


Trace Lara Hentz (made an honorary member of the Talligewi Sovereign Nation) is an award winning journalist.  Her memoir One Small Sacrifice (2nd edition, 2012) was retired in 2018 and she plans to work on it more and un-retire it eventually.  Known for her in-depth interviews for national Native newspaper NEWS FROM INDIAN COUNTRY, she won many awards, authored many academic papers, and co-edited the acclaimed book series Lost Children of the Indian Adoption Projects. [www.blog.americanindianadoptees.com]

In addition to her own chapbooks of poetry, Sleeps With Knives (2nd edition in 2019) and Becoming (retired), Trace has also contributed to a number of publications:  “What I Know” in Spirit in the Woods; “The Silence is So Loud” in Invoking the Muse; “Your God Doesn’t Forget” displayed in the Memphis Brooks Museum of Art in Tennessee in 2006; “Your God Doesn’t Forget,” “People Waking Up,” and “Heart-shaped Ass, beauty in pounds” in Yellow Medicine Review; “Jump” in Rabbit and Rose; “Earth’s Funeral,” “Swallow Manifesto” and “Heart-shaped Ass” in I Was Indian Vol. 2.; and “Swimmer” in 30 Poems in November.

NEW: Cloud Women’s Quarterly Spring 2019
Three poems were posted Cloud Women’s Quarterly!

Ghost Shell  placed second in national poetry contest in July of 2010. Written in May and submitted on June 23, 2010 to the Goodreads “Poetry” Contest, the poem took second place among 6 finalists on July 2.  Goodreads and the “Poetry” judges Wendy Babiak, Andrew Haley, and Ruth Bavetta selected six poems as finalists and the July winner was determined by online votes. Their newsletter is distributed monthly to more than 2.5 million people. (Ghost Shell is published in her twin books Mental Midgets | Musqonocihte.)

Her poem “Swallow Manifesto” was published in Tending the Fire: Native Voices and Portraits, by Chris Felver, in 2017.

She has contributed writing to Last Real Indians and Dissident Voice.

Trace launched the publishing collective Blue Hand Books launched in 2011, to pay it forward, and assist other Native authors to publish their works.

She is a multi-genre author, poet, journalist and activist.  Her work is heavily focused on Native Americans and Native American adoption issues.  She has three unpublished theatrical plays, two fiction manuscripts underway, and an unpublished children’s book series Red Man. In addition Trace (as poet) is thinking about Psycho Playboys as a theme for a new work.

Author blog: [www.blog.tracehentz.com]

WIKI BIO:  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trace_DeMeyer


Honor Restored, Jim Thorpe’s Olympic Medals (Chapter 2, pages 38-50) OLYMPICS AT THE MILLENNIUM: POWER, POLITICS AND THE GAMES 2000, Edited by Kay Shaffer and Sidonie Smith, Rutgers Press, 2000, ISBN:0-8135-2819-4
ONE SMALL SACRIFICE: A Memoir, Lost Children of the Indian Adoption Projects ISBN: 978-0-557-25599-3. 1st edition, January 2010. Book of the Month, Native America Calling, March 2010. 2nd Edition, 2012, Blue Hand Books
Co-editor: Unraveling the Spreading Cloth of Time: Indigenous Thoughts Concerning the Universe by MariJo Moore and Trace A. DeMeyer (Editors) Renegade Planet Publishing, 2013

Lost Children of the Indian Adoption Projects (4 vol. book series)

Mental Midgets | Musqonocihte Twin Books: “It’s a Miracle We Survived This Far” ISBN: 9781731074010, 2019

Trace (formerly DeMeyer) lives at the foot of the Berkshire Mountains in Greenfield Massachusetts with her fun husband/fisherman/bowler, a retired college administrator, Herb Hentz.


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